Okay, as I start to write this, it’s December 29th, 2018. It’s also my birthday. We are almost at the new year. At the moment, I am not drawing. This has been a developing and very disturbing pattern for me. I am also making an effort to write more, which is why I’m writing this.
I typically don’t make resolutions for the new year, but this time around I’m going to really lean into it. I’m going to quit shitting around and draw/write more for 2019. Why? Because I am honestly very scared. I’ve been scared for a few months now, as I have noticed a change in my flow. I have not been doodling/sketching/drawing as much as usual the past few months. I’m not positive, but I think a big reason is because I’m just simply tired in the evenings. I’m exhausted from the daily grind of working the day job. And I’m going to be completely honest here: I don’t want my bullshit day job to get in the way of my potential. Sounds a little raw, but it’s the truth. Sorry, plumbing. Sorry, but I’m an artist at heart and I don’t want to lose a lifetime of whatever drawing skills I have worked at in favour of the daily blah. I just do not want to lose what has been a part of me my entire life, which is drawing. It’s easy to lose skills at something when you don’t practice consistently, so I am going to get after it! And more writing. I like writing, too. I like writing about my drawing.
Know what I mean? Stop and think about it for a second … Maybe you figure skate. Maybe you sew. Maybe you make pottery. Paint? Garden? Woodworking?
I say all this being fully aware that I am not the greatest artist to have ever held a pencil. Trust me, I have drawn a lot of shit. I have a box of shit drawings (I keep everything). But there is something about my style and drive to get better that attracts me to it. I get excited when I see inspiration in certain things. I might see a magazine with some cool artwork – tattoo or skate magazines, perhaps – or I’ll see a sign somewhere that sparks something. And when my drawing/illustration comes together, it’s absolutely perfect. It’s exciting for me and I don’t want to lose it. I want to improve and see what comes next!
So that’s my plan without a plan! I am going to simply draw and write more, starting with this writing.
Stay tuned …
Oh, wait a second! See below for my official first drawing of 2019. Our friends’ son wanted me to draw him a knight and fire breathing dragon. And he wanted it now. Like, before breakfast. I hadn’t even had coffee yet. So just before breakfast on New Year’s Day, I somehow managed to pull this out of my nowhere. It’s not that great, but he was super excited as the drawing came to life.